Wednesday, December 27, 2017

Merry Christmas! The Luke Family 2017 Recap!



2017 has certainly been a year to remember!  Endings that created new beginnings.  That would be the summary of this year for us.  We celebrated these endings and beginnings, but in some areas they were bittersweet.  Change has never been easy for me, but these necessary changes have blessed us so much this year, and we know that we are loved and cared for by our Creator that has good and fruitful plans for us.  We have so much to celebrate and be thankful for this year!
 
The beginning of the year marked the ending of a dream, and the beginning of another.  Andee and I had always planned on returning to Canada after he completed his training in the US.  But God had other plans.  Letting go of the return to Canada (at least for now) was an incredibly difficult process, but we knew it was going to be a part of our story for Andee to take a job here and remain in Iowa.  A healthy combination of sadness and hopefulness accompanied this decision, but we are confident in it and love our lives here in Iowa! 

This veer from the plan sparked an array of new and beautiful beginnings!  We started the hunt for a house in mid-January, and put an offer in on our dream home in February.  Our offer was accepted, and we moved in at the end of March.  It is so far beyond what we ever expected, and is absolutely perfect for us.  Equipped with bedrooms for family and friends to come and stay, we were thrilled with our new home!  But two people living in a big house - what were we to do with all the extra room?

Right on (God’s) schedule, Andee and I found out in late February that we were pregnant!  This marked the end of my hesitation and the beginning of a long road in trusting God with us and our new addition.  We were so excited to begin this new chapter of our lives as we began the journey to starting a family!  Little Baby Luke would be due in November of 2017, and we were anxiously awaiting his arrival!
In the midst of the joy of pregnancy came the realization that some necessary endings would have to take place to make space in our lives for our new addition.  I have always wanted to stay at home with our babies, and so I decided to quit my job at the church to make this dream a reality.  I absolutely loved working at Prairie Lakes Church, and so I did not take this decision lightly.  I did, however, receive so much love and support from my coworkers in making this decision, and am confident it was the right one.

Another necessary ending, this one without even a tinge of sadness, was Andee’s graduation from Residency!  After 7 long years of Medical training abroad, this graduation was a culmination of all the hard work, countless moves, endless paperwork, lots of curve balls, and God’s ever prominent hand in our lives as we put to rest this phase of our lives and looked forward to the prospect of Andee starting his full time employment as a Family Medicine Physician!  Needless to say, we were thrilled to have this process finally in our rear view mirror, but are forever grateful for the impact that this journey has had on our relationship with each other, our ability to persevere, and our level of trust and hope in our good God who orchestrated it all!  We are better people having been through this!

And now for the biggest news of all!  On November 7th, 2017, we welcomed Aaron James Luke, 6 lbs 4oz, 18.5 inches, into our lives!  Words cannot describe the feeling of hearing his first cry, holding him for the first time, and the rollercoaster of emotions that follow in the lives of a new parent.  This new beginning is by far the most beautiful, challenging, life-changing milestone that we have experienced thus far in our lives.  God has blessed us with the privilege and responsibility of raising His child to know and love Him.  And that is what we shall do!

As we look back at all that we experienced in 2017, we also look forward to what 2018 has in store for our growing family!  We love all of you reading this, and we hope that you will continue to experience life with us in 2018!

Merry Christmas from the Luke Family – Andee, Diana, Aaron & Vera



Wednesday, December 20, 2017

Newborn Photo Shoots

Of course you didn't think we would have a beautiful baby boy and not take adorable photos of him!  Our friend Molly and my favourite sister Cassie took some adorable photos of our little family!  We definitely have the cutest baby in the whole wide world.  And I'm not even biased!  Okay, maybe just a little.  Many of these photos were captured amidst some serious screams, and yet he still looks pretty darn adorable!

For your viewing pleasure, our newborn photo shoots!

Molly's Photo Shoot


 Cassie's Photo Shoot

Aaron James Luke

Oh, my heart.

November 7th, 2017; 8:00 a.m.  One day before my scheduled c-section for medical reasons.  My water breaks.  And then my contractions start.  Andee tells me I have 10 minutes to get ready and out the door - we were heading to the hospital.  Naturally, I curled my hair.  Because that was a good use of 10 minutes.  In the time it took to get to the hospital (10 minutes), my contractions had become very close together; in fact, they were less than five minutes apart.  I was progressing quickly.  The contractions were exactly what I was expecting.  Andee watched the monitor and let me know when they would stop.  Epidural.  Surgery.  Andee by my side. 

Oh, my heart.

And then....Baby.  My baby.  Our baby.  He came into the world with a soft cry that obliterated my heart into a million pieces.  He was healthy and just the perfect size.  He had perfect features and tiny little limbs like his Momma.  And he was mine.  I stared at him for 3 days at the hospital.  The surgery was rough and I couldn't pick him up on my own for a couple weeks.  But when Andee would hand him to me I was holing onto a little miracle that God knit together inside of me.  I barely noticed the lack of sleep because I was so in love with my perfect little boy.

Oh, my heart.

And then, a couple weeks went by.  I wasn't recovering well from surgery and everything hurt.  The lack of sleep caught up with both Andee and I, and Aaron started showing signs of colic.  Which means he cries.  All. The. Time.  And with gusto.  Arched back, red face, screams, and my little boy experiencing such discomfort that it makes my heart hurt.  And my ears.  And my everything.  I started crying constantly alongside my baby, sure that I was unfit to be his mother if I couldn't even soothe him.  I should be able to do this.  I'm his mother - why can't I give him what he needs?

Oh, my heart.

And it has improved.  I'm still in pain and am starting physical therapy.  He still cries.  All. The. Time.  But he sleeps better at night.  And I've amped up my arsenal of soothing techniques.  And I've talked with other moms that assure me that this is normal, and that I will eventually sleep again.  And I will have less pain.  And that it's okay to be overwhelmed.  And when family came to visit, we were supported and helped through this difficult phase.

Oh, my heart.

But today.  Today I get it.  For the first time today my baby smiled at me.  And not the reflex smiles that happen in their sleep.  But a real, genuine, smile.  He looked directly into my eyes, held my gaze, and smiled back at my own smiling face as I told him how much I loved him.  And I know that this is just a phase.  And I know that it's worth it.  And that my baby won't be a baby forever.  And that he will become more and more interactive and will develop a personality of his own.  And that I am so looking forward to my baby growing up, while at the same time wanting time to slow down as he outgrows his tiny little sleepers.

Oh, my heart.

And I still feel like a failure some of the time.  And I'm still exhausted and hurting.  And I wear noise cancelling headphones while I attempt to soothe my screaming baby.  My life is completely different than it was before.  And it's hard.  And I'm tempted to throw in the towel.  But I have been blessed with this beautiful baby boy.  The one with the perfect features and tiny limbs.  An adorable mix of his mom and dad.  And as I type this I am crying hysterically verging on tears as I try to wrap my head around the depth of my love for him. 

Aaron James Luke.  November 7th, 2017.  6 lbs 4 oz.  18.5 inches.  Oh, my heart.


Tuesday, October 3, 2017

Pregnancy

Pregnancy.  What a beautiful, creative idea constructed by God that a woman can carry their child with them for months before they get to meet them.  That God is forming a perfect little person inside of you while you just go about your daily life.  That you can feel them move, and they can hear you speak before they join you on the outside.  It's incredible and nothing short of a miracle, and I truly believe all of this to be true.

But sometimes miracles just don't feel all warm and fuzzy.  Sometimes they are hard, and sometimes they are painful, and sometimes The Fall of man into sin impacts you so directly that it makes you angry that the fruit just looked so good.  And sometimes I am dramatic and like to use words on a page to at least try to explain a little of what I'm feeling.  It's therapeutic.  And at eight months pregnant, this could indeed be one of those times.  Pregnancy is not for the faint of heart, and although I can readily admit that I know many women that had far more severe pregnancy symptoms than I (and I am filled with a newfound empathy for them), I was incredibly naive to the struggles of growing a human.  Third trimester is uncomfortable, painful, and exhausting on a physical, mental, and emotional level, and I am both incredibly ready for it to be over as well as need much more time.

I have 5 weeks to go.  It seems both way too short and way too long at the same time.  Way too short because I haven't completed my baby to-do list and feel mentally and spiritually ill-prepared to be a mom.  Way too long because of the persistent pain and discomfort that is currently every minute of every day.  Pregnancy is not for the weak!

And although I feel weak and incapable, and fearful, and uncomfortable, I refuse to let that define me.  I am not weak because I have the strength of God.  I am not incapable because God will equip me with everything I need to raise a child in His love.  I have no need to be fearful because the God of the Universe has not given me a spirit of fear or timidity, but of power, of love, and of self-control.  And in my discomfort I both share in the suffering of Christ (in a very small way), and also receive God's comfort and the comfort of others.

And let's not forget that it's not all for nothing.  At the end of this pregnancy journey comes a little person - a sweet little boy that I can feel inside me that will soon join our family.  A beautiful, terrifying gift from God.  I know it will be hard.  But despite the enemy and honestly my own best efforts to sabotage with fear and lies, I am truly excited to meet him.  And I trust that my God will give me everything I need to raise His child.  It's going to be a wild ride!!

So, in case you are interested, a compilation of pregnancy related photos - starring, Baby Luke!  Also included are maternity photo shoot photos and the obligatory 'bump' photos!  Watch Baby Luke and I grow!  Enjoy!

Pregnancy Announcement 
Gender Reveal
1st Timester
3rd Trimester
Baby Shower One
Baby Shower Two
Baby Shower Three
Baby Shower Four
 Nursery
Ultrasounds
Halloween Pumpkin Patch
 Baby Bump Photos

Maternity Photo Shoot